What It Means To Minister

Jesus, spirit of the beloved come upon me and give me rest.

I submit my lord, my love. I don't desire the powers any longer. I don't desire to be the changer to be the worker to be the needed one. Let them need only you and fill me to overflowing. Lord fill me with your love. 

I'm done offering advise. I don't want to fix things don't want to change things don't want to make things of my own volition. I want you lord, my love I want you. Yours is the power my love. I have seen and felt your glory and it is all I want. Let your love stay, let me carry you inside. Walk with me, go where I go. Fill me with this love that it might spill over onto others. Let the poor say they are rich, let the weak say I am strong, because you are with me. Let the children come to you, let your children come to you.

Just be with me, be with me so much that you're with others too, the ones I can't seem to help.

I forgive

I forgive my self lord.

I forgive Lord. Fill me with forgiveness. Lord the desire of my heart is to forgive.

To love deeper to love harder. Fill me lord. Transform my mind by the holy spirit.

I love you lord. But I know

You Love me more.

How can I not

Forgive.

Breaking Bread

No longer do I desire to consume anything.

I will not buy the lie, I will not follow death and all of his friends, will not be an observer of the circle of death. I will be moved by nothing but my lord.

For his love has conquered the grave. Death has no hold of my life.  I trust and move boldly now into the new creation.

One in which life does not depend on the death of others in an endless cycle. One death for all deaths that the old might pass. Now those that "eat my flesh and drink my blood" are remnants to continue on as the NEW comes to be. Slowly but surely comes to be.

Once Life was my god, and fear drove me towards you lord but now I understand your words. If I had been satisfied in finding life surely I would have died, but now in the presence of your love you are my God and I will lay down my life.

In hopes of gaining you.

YHWH I call on the name of the Lord! YHWH!

Lord, my love....

I'm going to go to work now....